there is this scent. it’s got overtones of warmth and brightness, and undertones of something that makes me think of coconuts and sunflowers, something that i can really only describe as the smell of sunshine. you know the feeling you have when you’re lying on the grass on a day that’s just a little too hot, that would be perfect if there were a slight breeze? the feeling of the sun actually pressing on your skin, bearing weight on you, as if it were the warm body of a lover? if that feeling had a scent, it would smell like this.
not long ago, when i caught it somewhere, it would just set my heart at ease. a little smile, inexplicable to anyone watching, would just flutter down and light on my mouth like a butterfly.
it doesn’t anymore.
paul simon says that
losing love is like a window in your heart:
everybody sees you’re blown apart.
everybody feels the wind blow.
lately, it’s been a little drafty in here.