there are necessities and reminders:
a stack of library books. pictures, postcards. a wedding announcement. a pair of champagne flutes.
a carnation. it’s been there for two weeks. it’s still in full bloom.
i had thought that in this time it would have slumped in the vase, its blush would have faded, its petals would have dried and fallen. i had thought that after this time, it would be gone.
i had thought something else would be gone, too.
so i’m going to keep an eye on that carnation. i’m going to wait for it to wither. i’m going to wait for the water to dry, for the stem to thin, for the leaves to curl back and drop away.
and when it does… i’m going to take it as a sign.