i’ve been teetering like a top on the brink of falling for a while now, which is rather exhausting and i’m a bit tired of it, i confess. now it feels like things are steady for a moment: spinning, spinning, spinning just as they should.
the next half year will bring a lot of bumps, this i know. i don’t really think i can do any more to prepare for them than i already have, which is mostly frightening. it is the tiniest bit exhilarating, like when you sit down to take a test and you know you’ve learned everything you’re going to learn, and now you have to trust yourself.
i don’t have long left to study.